I loved this kitchen.
How many times had four kids sat at this large island in their cartoon pajamas? Messy morning hair and laughter. Spilled fruit loops on the faux marble countertop. How many times had we sat at that kitchen table for six sharing life and a home cooked meal? I loved this kitchen because it meant family.
Reality meant leaving this house for a Mom plus four house. I found a perfectly cute rental close to our favorite hiking trails. The soccer fields were just around the corner. (High five soccer parents!)
Here in the empty kitchen I was having this lone farewell moment. I was half reflective of what was, half prayerful about an uncertain future. Then, I thought:
If I love this kitchen and if God loves me- then what would be better than this kitchen?
The answer literally dropped into my brain,
What? Where did that come from? I’m not a material girl. Certainly I admired granite countertops but taming wild acres in the country ate up most of the building budget we had several years earlier. There had been zero dollars for granite countertops.
God used that question and answer to shift my perspective. To shift from what was, to what could be. To dream a little. It was a move to future HOPE in the middle of right now loss. Real HOPE.
2 Chronicles 16:9a (NIV) is such a favorite of mine: For the eyes of the Lord range throughout the earth to strengthen those whose hearts are fully committed to him.
One way Jesus strengthens our hearts is by giving us hope! Hope in His goodness. His plans. His purposes. Hope for a future that isn’t bleak but bright with possibility because of Him. Because He is our Hope Giver.
I moved into that cozy rental house with four precious kids in tow. It didn’t have granite counter tops, but it was a Goldilocks, just-right fit for us.
Fast forward several years (and hundreds of lessons learned) later.
I met and married Dan. As a blended family, think Brady Bunch, we needed a much bigger house than either one of us lived in. Unfortunately, small rural towns don’t boast many large-enough-for-eight-rental-homes. My Type A timetable had long come and gone when just in time, God made a way!
His way was a good way! This house was huge- 3400 sft. of custom living space that included four bedrooms, two of which were master suites. It sat on 82 acres with beautiful sunset views. Lots of space for us to spread out and grow into a family together. Totally unexpected and crazy!!! (Note- we didn’t win the lottery! We paid half the value of this home in our lease!) It was a God thing.
And guess what?
The kitchen had granite countertops!
Life is always moving. Whether the season is suffering or joy, it’s a moving season. That’s something to hold onto! The hopeless place that feels so permanent is temporary! God takes us through things. We don’t have to understand it all to trust. Wrestling with trying to make sense of it all- is exhausting. We can ask Him for hope. We can even dream because He loves us!
What would be better than this?
Sarah Young says it this way, “Hope is a golden cord connecting you to heaven. This cord helps you hold your head up high, even when multiple trials are buffeting you.” From Jesus Calling, page 218.
I don’t know what you are facing friend but I’m praying that He gives you a granite countertop moment. That you can hear Him whisper hope.
God’s Word describes hope “as an anchor for our soul, firm and secure…” Hebrews 6:19 (NIV).
Doesn’t that sound amazing- to be anchored, firm, secure? It’s possible when we place our hope in Him.
I pray that you will know that God is at work in your right now. And actually, since He’s God and not bound by time like we are, He’s even at work in your future.
Let’s hope together friends.
PS Here’s one of my favorite HOPE songs!